Stop circling

As I sat in the bleachers of the high school wrestling match, I watched these two young men just circle around each other.  Neither one making a move toward the other. Each was waiting to see what the other was going to do first.  I thought to myself, why are they doing that?  Why wait on someone else to do something before you do what it is you want to do?  Just do something, right or wrong, just do SOMETHING!  Great men went for it in life.  Sometimes, the choice will turn out to be the wrong one but what if that choice; that decision to just go for it, is the catalyst with which your best life happens?  If it is the wrong one, chalk it up to a lesson learned and go for the next one.  We only get this one single life to live with no do overs when it’s done, so why go in circles waiting for your chance to get the one perfect move in when you could make so many surprising moves in the meantime?  Stop sidestepping the hard things and just do SOMETHING!  Whether your something ends up being a colossal mistake or the beginning of your true journey, you will inevitably know that you didn’t just circle greatness, but that you went for it.  That you spent your one life living and loving and moving forward.  The first step is always the scariest but exciting adventure awaits us all in this life as long as we are willing to step outside the safety our circle!  

Unchallenged and unimpressed

There is one question I get asked by my family just about every Sunday..and that is, "Why are you still single?".  My answer is simply, "Hell if I know!". I believe the answer is two fold though. I absolutely refuse to settle again AND I am quite a handful!  I totally understand me and I am completely aware of my shortcomings and issues.   I'm sweet and salty, bitchy and twisted, funny and flighty, devilish and innocent all rolled into one hand crafted creation of woman. I pout when I don't get my way, I can't cook to save my life (which surprises me that the Mongrels did survive their childhood with minimal cooking accomplishments on my part), I can't hold a grudge (even to those I feel are completely deserving of hot pokers of hatred), and I am fully aware of the outstanding nature I have of talking incessantly about anything and everything, how I say what is on my mind without minding who is around. I am very territorial within all aspects of my life - I am not a big fan of sharing anything that is mine. I have this wild hair that grows out of my ass sometimes and makes me feel if I don't do something wild and crazy then I will just explode from the lack of fun.  I am quite the "Quote Aficionado" - meaning I have some useless humor or words of wisdom (whichever you are needing) on hand at all times. Also, I am a complete word whore - I absolutely love how they comfort me and abandon me all at the same exact time. I can be quite awkward, especially if I find you attractive. Need I go on or you get the picture?
Soooooooooo, as you can see it is going to take a special kind of crazy to handle all of me and my awkward, word loving, wild hair growing self.  None have been up to the challenge and that's ok....until one challenges me and actually wins, I'm just fine entertaining myself.